116 ~ Where's Todd

By Kay Heitsch

My reason for buying a Bible in the first place was to find out where Todd was. I knew he was not in the cold, hard body I lovingly touched in the funeral home.

I went out to the accident site and saw and touched his blood on the tree he hit. I was told that Todd died instantly, so he felt no pain. This gave me some comfort.

But I also drove out to this accident site many times and somehow knew this was where Todd left this earth. I was never taught anything like this. I had never heard anyone talk like this either.

I wanted to know the truth! And prayed every day as I studied the Bible. I learned so much before I ever found the verses to tell me where Todd was.

I bought colored markers and pencils and highlighted what I was learning that was helping me. First, I learned not to be afraid. I was scared of what I might learn, believe it or not. As I studied, I learned not to worry. I discovered God loved me unconditionally. I also learned to put my trust in Him.

I still hadn't found what I was looking for, but somehow I had decided that I would put my complete trust in God. I knew He loved me and Todd.

Then it happened, I started to find verses that helped me understand where Todd was. This was one. "We are confident, I say, and willing rather to be absent from the body, and to be present with the Lord." 2 Corinthians 5:8 KJV After finding this verse, I found several others.

When I think back, I believe God used my curiosity to know where Todd was to show me His love and His way of living the abundant life that Jesus died to give me. I knew I could trust the loving God, even if I had never found these verses.

Yes, I believe when I sat out in the van on that cold, dreary day, looking up to the sky, I knew God had taken my boy home!

Todd's death was a tragedy, but God has brought triumph out of it!

I will always remember how God has led me on this long journey. Deuteronomy 8:2