162 ~ Why Did It Take Todd's Death

By Kay Heitsch

This is one question I have asked myself many times. Why did it take Todd's death for me to turn to the Lord for help?

I knew I needed help. But I didn't want to admit I needed the Lord. I guess this was one reason.

In my quest to fill the void, I began searching before Todd died. I'm thankful I shared many things I found with him.

I learned that I could put Bible verses into practice and live a happier life, as long as everything was going okay. I loved the challenge of doing it. But it took Todd's death for me to ask the Lord into my life and help me after he died.

Was I really doing anything without God's help? I know I could not take another breath without God. I believe God was helping me all along, but I didn't realize it at the time.

Something amazing did happen when I asked the Lord into my life. I felt a peace and love I had never known before. The emptiness was filled. I began daily conversations with God on what I should do with His help.

I'm sorry I was so stubborn and didn't want to admit I needed the Lord in my life until after Todd died. I don't know why it took Todd's death for me to realize this.

Remember how I led you on this long journey. Deuteronomy 8:2