Thursday, November 18, 2021

Healing Balm of Love

by Kay Heitsch

When your child dies, you live with a broken heart. It doesn't matter how many years go by; there is always a missing part of you. There are days you smile when you think about your child, but there are also days a tear will roll down your cheek out of nowhere. You may be going along, and all of a sudden, you have an overwhelming lonely feeling you can't explain.
When your child's birthday or the day they died comes along, your broken heart is more evident. Your feelings are right on edge. Holidays or family get-togethers can be the same way. It's at those times that the sense that something isn't right is staring you in the face.
I usually don't talk about these things, but for some reason, today, I thought I should. I know many parents who feel this same thing.
On these hard days, I have noticed God sends people who show His love in their kind words, actions, and even a tender hug when I need it. I call this a healing balm of love.
I've been blessed to have this balm of love pour into my broken heart at different times in my life, and I am thankful for it.
Does a broken heart ever heal? I don't know that it does, but I know that God will send a healing balm of love to help ease the pain through kind and loving people.

Thursday, October 28, 2021

The Stories

by Kay Heitsch

Last summer, our grandsons Noah and Eli came for a visit. Eli was sleeping in the spare bedroom, where I had a clear plastic container that I kept the stories, etc., I'd written in. Eli wanted to know what all these papers were. So I told him they were stories about what God has done in my life. I said I had written them for Noah and him to read one day. I also said he might want to make a book out of them.
The main reason I wrote these stories out is because of a Bible verse I read. At the time, we didn't have any grandchildren, so this verse seemed to be speaking directly to me. So here's the Bible verse. "Write down for the coming generation what the LORD has done so that people not yet born will praise Him." Psalm 102: 18 GNT
I was sharing this verse with a friend before Noah and Eli were born. Lisa reminded me that the coming generation meant more than just my grandchildren, and I should share these stories with everyone.
I believe this verse is for all of us. We all have stories of what the LORD has done. I think it's essential to write down our stories so people not yet born will praise the LORD.

Tuesday, October 26, 2021

Unexpected Blessing

by Kay Heitsch

Yesterday it was pouring rain when Blessing Plumbing and Heating came out to do their rescheduled maintenance on our furnace and hot water heater. I say rescheduled maintenance because they were supposed to come last month.
The technician needed to put the hose in the sump pump to drain the hot water heater. But, as he took the lid off, he noticed the water was up to the top! So he jiggled the plug and tried a of couple other things, but the sump pump had just stopped working. Ryan checked his records and let us know that our warranty was still in effect. He replaced our sump pump at no charge to us.
Think about this! What are the odds of this happening as it did? This appointment was a rescheduled service date. Had Blessing come last month, the sump pump would have been working fine.
I used this quote and Bible verse today, "Sometimes blessings come when you never expect them to come. ~Blessing Quotes ~ "Find out for yourself how good the LORD is. Happy are those who trust in Him." Psalm 34:8
I am thanking the LORD for his unexpected blessing, and I found out for myself how good the LORD is. I am happy I put my trust in Him.

Sunday, October 24, 2021

Miracles Do Happen

by Kay Heitsch

Many years ago, I had a miracle happen in my life.
Our son, Todd, had died in a car accident. As a result, we were all suffering in our family, especially our almost 3-year-old son Brandon. Todd and Brandon had a special relationship. Practically every night, Brandon would get out of his bed, go down the stairs, and get in bed with Todd. Then, in the morning, they would get up together, and Todd would make them breakfast.
When Todd didn't come home after leaving that Saturday morning, Brandon didn't understand. So when Brandon went down to get in bed with Todd, he wasn't there. So again, Brandon was confused, and as the days went by, Brandon began to stutter.
During the day, Brandon would call to me that Todd was on the phone and wanted to talk to me. I can't tell you how heartbreaking this was to me. I did not know what to do! I started to pray about this situation, but Brandon's stuttering continued.
One day as we were walking in our neighborhood, Brandon noticed a dead bird on the side of the road. Then, to my shock and amazement, Brandon stutter, "Thaaat birrrd is dddead jjjust like Ttttodd." Tears came to my eyes and Brandon's words broke my heart. But I knew he was right.
I kept praying that God would heal Brandon from his stuttering. Then, for some odd reason, I started to think I should bury this bird. I did not like the idea and continued to pray. But for some reason, I couldn't get this thought out of my mind. I even woke up at night thinking about it.
I couldn't see why I should bury this bird, but I decided to do it so I would quit thinking about it. I got a pail and shovel out of the garage before Brandon, and I took our walk. I scooped the bird up in the shovel and put it in the bucket. Together Brandon and I walked to the back of our yard, and I dug a hole. With tears running down my face, I told Brandon he was right; this little bird was dead, just like Todd. I had Brandon shake the bucket and call to the bird. Of course, the bird never moved. So I told him one day Jesus was going to call with a loud voice and this bird and Todd would come alive. I told Brandon he would see Todd again.
The next morning when Brandon woke up he was not stuttering, and he never stuttered again.
Do I believe in miracles? You better believe I do!

Monday, October 18, 2021

Lone Survivor

by Kay Heitsch

Today I learned that General Colin Powell has died. I send my condolences to his family.
In 1991 General Powell, Angel Wallenda, and I were given the Norman Vincent Peale Award in Atlanta, GA. It was an honor to be given this award with these two outstanding people.
I met Angel. She had cancer and had to have her leg and part of her lung amputated, but cancer didn't stop her. She still learned to walk the wire again. Angel died in 1996.
General Powell couldn't attend the awards ceremony, so I couldn't meet him in person. However, I admired General Powell and was proud that we received the same award.
Today Bill said, "Well, you're the lone survivor" when he heard General Powell had died. When he said this, it caused me to remember Angel and General Powell.
We never know what our journey in life will bring. However, if we live in a relationship with the LORD, He will help us live the positive and abundant life that Jesus died to give us.

Friday, October 15, 2021

What If?

by Kay Heitsch

When one of your children dies instantly in a car accident, many fears and worries go through your mind. I remember well the feeling of not wanting my other two children out of my sight.
Right away, I wondered how I would deal with the idea of Shannon and Brandon wanting to drive. The words "What if?" would come to my mind.
Once I turned my life over to the LORD, these worries became less and less. I started to remember how the LORD saw me through Todd's untimely death. I saw how good things came out of this horrible life experience. Deep within my spirit, I knew I could trust the LORD to take care of me no matter what life brought.
Both Shannon and Brandon got their driver's licenses. I'm so happy I turned my worries and fears over to the LORD and didn't put them on my children.
There are a lot of "What if's?" in life. Like the Bible says, "They do not fear bad news; they confidently trust the LORD to care for them." Psalm 112:7 NLT
Keeping our focus on the LORD, knowing He cares for us, will free us from the worry of the "What If's" in life.

Thursday, October 14, 2021

Right Place Right Time

by Kay Heitsch

When we look back on our life, we can see where we were in the right place at the right time.
When I was a child, I was walking home from town. A car pulled up and tried to get me into it. I felt strongly that something wasn't right! I immediately noticed the back door of the last store on the block and ran into it. Had I walked only a few seconds more, I wouldn't have been able to run into the back door of the store.
Later on, in life, I noticed people who needed help. Somehow I was in the right place at the right time to help them.
Here's one example. One afternoon I was driving home from work and noticed a woman walk down into a ditch as I was driving by. I turned around and went back to see if she needed help. Sure enough, she did. Had I only been a few seconds earlier or later, I would never have noticed her.
These are only two simple illustrations from my life. But we can all look back and see where God had us in the right place at the right time.

Friday, October 8, 2021

Is That It?

by Kay Heitsch

I had an extraordinary friend by the name of Dimple. She was one of the most spiritual people I have ever met. I'm not sure how old Dimple was, but she always said she was pushing 100.
Dimple and I spent a lot of time together. On many occasions, we would go out to lunch. Before we ate, Dimple would pray. I was surprised at her simple prayers. Sometimes she would close her eyes, but many times she just spoke. For instance, she may say, "Father, thank You for this special time I can spend with Kay, and thank You for this food." Amen
I was a new Christian at the time, and I remember thinking, "Is that it?" I had heard people pray many times, and they blessed everyone from ten buck two and went on and on until the food was almost cold.
Because of Dimple's relationship with God, she talked to Him as her friend. She didn't need to go on and on in her prayers. Knowing Dimple, I'm sure she had conversations with the LORD all day long.
I'm thankful the LORD brought Dimple into my life. She taught me so much about how to live in a simple personal relationship with God.

Thursday, October 7, 2021

God Stepped In

by Kay Heitsch

We all go through tough times. Years ago, we had our share.
If it wasn't one thing, it was another. What I found interesting was how God stepped in to help in unexpected ways.
We have moved several times over the years. As a result, we've had additional mortgage payments. Our payment was pretty high when Bill lost his job. I had a job, but I was only making a little above minimum wage.
One day we heard the doorbell ring. Bill went to the door but didn't see anyone there. However, there was a package left on the porch. Bill brought it in. We were curious, wondering what it could be.
Inside the package were a lot of papers to fill out to refinance our home. We had not sent for this. Bill decided to fill out the paperwork and send it back and see what happens.
Lo and behold, everything checked out, and our mortgage payment was significantly reduced.
I've thought about this experience over the years many times. The unexpected way God stepped in to help when we needed it has caused me to trust Him more especially when times are tough.

Thursday, September 23, 2021

Even In Your Darkest Hour

by Kay Heitsch

It may be a surprise to some people that God loves you even when you don't love Him.
I found this to be true years ago. I've stated before that I have not always been a Christian. I lived most of my life, never even thinking about the LORD. As a result, I had little or no use for people who claimed to be Christian. To make this point, one day a minister came to see me. He asked if I wanted to go to heaven. I replied, "I don't even want to spend one hour a week with you people. Why would I want to spend eternity?"
At a very dark time in my life, I learned about God's love. One night I was in a house where the walls were painted entirely black. I went into the bathroom and saw myself in the mirror. I looked so bad I was scared and screamed!
I'll never forget what happened next. The words of the song, Jesus loves me, this I know came to my mind. I was stunned! I remember thinking, how could Jesus love me in this condition? But I believe 100% He did!
This Bible verse has special meaning to me. "I was found by people who were not looking for Me. I showed Myself to those who were not asking for Me." Romans 10:20
I certainly was not looking for the LORD, but in my darkest hour, He showed Himself to me with love.
Do I believe God loves you even if you don't love Him? Yes, I most certainly do. God loves us even in our darkest hour.

Monday, August 30, 2021

Unexpected Answer to Prayer

by Kay Heitsch

When your child dies, parents respond in different ways. Emotional pain is hard to deal with. Bill and I reacted differently.
Right away, I was offered drugs by a doctor. From experience, I knew this was not going to be good for me. Also, from experience, I knew alcohol was not going to help me either. So, I chose to give myself and Todd over to the LORD. However, my husband Bill decided to drink to numb the pain.
I grew up with an alcoholic father. I learned that harping at a person didn't stop the drinking. So I decided to say nothing at all about the drinking. Instead, I prayed that the Lord would replace the drinking with something else.
Every day when Bill got off work, I was in the bedroom praying he would not bring home beer and the Lord would replace his drinking with something else.
I hadn't been a Christian very long, so I didn't think to tell God what I thought He should replace the drinking with. Weeks went by when I did not see any results from my praying.
I had started to attend a small church. The people were friendly, and they had a music ministry. So one week, I asked Bill to come over because we were going to have a potluck. Unfortunately, Bill was less than enthusiastic with his response, "Someone has to work for a living." I must say I was pretty surprised when he walked in the door of the church.
A lady was sitting in a pew in front of us when she heard Bill singing. Betty turned around and touched Bill's hand and told him what a great voice he had. She expressed the idea that he might think about joining the music ministry. Bill hit the door!
When we had another potluck, I told Bill about it, and he came back over. As we were eating, one of the people from the music ministry stopped by our table. Carol said she had heard from her mom Betty that Bill had a great singing voice. So Carol invited Bill to stay after the potluck to join the group to practice for the upcoming Easter program. Much to my surprise, Bill agreed.
To make a long story shorter, Carol and Joe gave Bill keys to the church. They packaged up a box of performance tapes, showed him how to use the music system, and told Bill he could come in anytime and practice for the Easter program.
Instead of stopping to buy beer, Bill went over to this little church to practice singing for the upcoming Easter program.
My prayer was answered unexpectedly! I will never forget this! I would never have thought God would replace drinking with singing Christian songs, but He did!

Thursday, August 12, 2021

I Enjoy Exercise Tape

by Kay Heitsch

Years ago, I could not stand to exercise until I bought a cassette tape called "I Enjoy Exercise." I listened to it every day. I purchased the cassette tape because I wanted to run in a race and hopefully win!
I had made a commitment to Todd that I would run in a race with him. Unfortunately, however, when that race came about, he had died. So I took part in that race without him running with me, and I didn't do too well.
So now I had decided I was going to train and hopefully win the next race. I needed motivation, so I purchased this "I Enjoy Exercise" cassette tape. I also listened to a cassette tape called "Win At Sports."
It was amazing what happened to my thinking as I listened to these cassette tapes daily. I started to think about the repeated words on the cassette tape. "I enjoy exercise." Instead of dreading exercise, I was thinking, "I enjoy exercise."
I found out how important words are that we play in our minds every day. I went from a person who could not stand to exercise to someone who started to exercise daily.
Just think how our lives will improve if we meditate on the uplifting and motivating words of the Bible. I have found many verses that have greatly improved my thinking and thereby improved my life.
How did I do in that race, you might be thinking? I actually won the gold medal in my age division.

Monday, July 26, 2021

When Your Child Dies

by Kay Heitsch

When your child dies, you miss many things about them.
One thing is the smell of the child. I remember holding Todd's letterman jacket to just get a scent of him. That may sound odd, but I'm sure other parents whose child has died may have done the same thing.
Another thing is hearing the child's voice.
Brandon was only 2 1/2 when Todd died. As Brandon got older, his voice began to change. One day, Brandon was upstairs when he called down to me. It was the strangest thing, but when Brandon called me, he sounded exactly like Todd.
It's interesting what things will come to your mind even after many years. These two memories are special to me and bring tears to my eyes and a smile as I remember.

Wednesday, July 14, 2021

Laugh and Stay Young

by Kay Heitsch

You don't stop laughing when you grow old. You grow old when you stop laughing. ~ Laugh and Stay Young Quotes ~
Did you know that being happy and laughing helps you stay young? This is because laughter releases hormones that reduce stress and promotes a positive mood. In addition, according to the Integrative Medical Center, laughter will increase beneficial growth hormone, the anti-aging hormone that helps keep us young.
Our Bible verse says, A cheerful heart is a good medicine, but a broken spirit saps a person’s strength. Proverbs 17:22 NLT
There ya go, a cheerful heart is a good medicine. It increases the anti-aging hormone that keeps us young. Who wouldn't want that?
You don't stop laughing when you grow old. You grow old when you stop laughing.

Tuesday, July 13, 2021

Dr. George's Dental White

by Kay Heitsch

Last week I went to the dentist to have my teeth cleaned and X-rays. This is not something I look forward to because I usually have something wrong. I ate Twizzlers for years, and let's just say they are not the best for your teeth.
Anyway, I had a new dental hygenist. This new gal asked if I wanted to know what my usual hygienist had written. I wasn't sure I wanted to or not, but I said, "Go ahead, and tell me." What was written in my chart was, "Excellent dental hygiene!" YAY!
This appointment got even better when I was told I had the whitest teeth she had ever seen in her 10 years of being a hygienist. She asked what I used, and I told her Dr.George's Dental White. I used to buy it at Walgreens, but they stopped carrying it. You can buy it online now directly from the company in England.
This dental appointment was the best one I've had in many years. I didn't need any new crowns or anything! I'm so happy, and I'm pleased to recommend Dr. George's Dental White with anyone who likes white teeth.

Friday, June 25, 2021

She Can't be Real

by Kay Heitsch.

This week we drove over to spend some time with Aunt Carmeleta. We don't see her very often since she lives in Tennesee. However, this past week her husband Ken drove their motor home to Michigan to attend their Campmeeting.
As always, it was great to see Aunt Carmeleta. She met us at the motor home door smiling. She gave us each a big hug and scurried around to make us comfortable.
The first time Bill met Aunt Carmeleta, he said, "She can't be real!" Bill had never met anyone so kind, loving, and full of mercy as Aunt Carmeleta. But after knowing her for well over 50 years, he knows she is.
I've been blessed to know Aunt Carmeleta my whole life. She has helped me more than she will ever know. When I'd tell her how people were talking bad about me, she would say, "Just keep being yourself." Aunt Carmeleta accepted me for who I was. I'm sure she saw areas I needed improvement in, but she only showed love, patience, and mercy to me.
Next month Aunt Carmeleta will be 89 years young. I say young because she never seems to age to me. She is still full of love, kindness, and mercy. She accepts people where they are, and oh yes, she is for real!

Sunday, June 20, 2021

Happy Father's Day Dad

by Kay Heitsch

My dad was born in 1910. Life was pretty rough for him as his mom died when he was 5. His father never remarried. He had 4 sisters, but they were less than enthusiastic about having a middle brother. I only know this because of the confessions of his sisters. My dad never said a mean word about these girls.
I was born when my dad was 40 years old. This was pretty old for a dad back in the '50s. Most people thought I was his granddaughter. He was really proud of having a little girl.
Dad had some issues that I'm sure were related to his troubled childhood. For example, he started to drink when he was 5 years old. He said he remembered falling down drunk at that age. He continued to drink for most of his life.
Even though dad had some issues, he did the best he could with what he had to work with. My mom would remind me of this, which now I think back, how very important that was for a child.
On this Father's Day, I'm thinking of my dad and all the dads who do the best they can with what they have to work with.
Happy Father's Day! God bless you all.

Monday, May 3, 2021

Boxes

It wasn't long after the "For Sale" sign went up on our front yard that they started arriving in our mailbox; postcards. Each one asked to provide service for our impending move. As I sorted through the array of cards, I selected three and called the first number. A man answered the phone and stated that he would be happy to come out and give me a free estimate. He explained that he was planning to go out of town for the weekend but he would come the following week. We set the appointment, and I called the other two numbers.
The next week at the time agreed upon, he arrived. He introduced himself as Roger. As he walked through our four-bedroom home, he calculated everything on a handheld computer with all the extras. When he finished, he handed me the printed estimate. Then he told me that to help save money on boxes, I could call down to his office and ask if anyone had turned in their used boxes. He said if anyone did, those boxes would be free for the taking. Little did he know that saving money on boxes was exactly what we needed.
Moving was nothing new for us. We had moved many times in the 27 years my husband, Bill, was with his former company. We had lived in 4 different states. But now Bill was not with this company anymore and we were paying for this move ourselves.
Our family had been through a lot over the years. The worst being the death of our 16-year-old son, Todd, in a car accident. I'd witnessed God bring triumph out of tragedy through his death. I had even written Dr. Norman V. Peale about some of these triumphs a few years before. When Roger was about to leave, I told him I wanted to give him something for coming out. He was surprised when I handed him the book "Have A Great Day-Everyday!" written by Dr. Peale. I told Roger about Todd's accident, and I explained the special meaning this book had for me. Roger thanked me and said his wife was a big fan of Dr. Peale's, and he knew she was going to love this book. Roger went on to say that the weekend trip he had been on was with his wife. He said she had just found out she had cancer. As Roger walked out the door, he said, "I know God sent me here today."
I liked the idea of the used boxes so we chose this company for our move. I called every few days to check to see if any had been turned in. Although the office girls were pleasant, the answer was always the same, "Sorry, we do not have any used boxes at this time." The days seemed to be flying by. I kept calling asking about the used boxes, but still, the answer was the same, "No boxes."
One day after calling, I started on my daily three-mile walk. As I usually did, I asked the Lord to bring anyone who I may help to the road. On my walk this day, a woman was waiting at the end of her driveway for me. As I walked closer, she said, "How did your house sell so fast?" I responded, " I put it in God's hands." I immediately added that putting things in God's hands doesn't always mean fast results. The last house we sold in Dover, Ohio, took two years to sell; and I also had put that one in God's hands. She smiled, and then I noticed a "For Sale" sign in her yard, too.
We talked awhile, and Sue told me that she was going through a divorce. She was apprehensive about her future. She expressed her fears about several things, one being where she would get boxes. From out of nowhere, I heard myself say, "Don't worry about boxes; God will provide you with the boxes you need just like He is going to provide them for me!" I was stunned! Where on earth had those words come from. Sue looked at me and said, "You know I have faith, but not like that!" I wasn't sure I had that much faith either, but the words were out, and I was going to believe God now.
A couple of weeks later, on my walk, I noticed a new family had moved in. Seeing their packing boxes piled out by the curb got my attention. The thought, "These are Sue's boxes," came to my mind. I walked right over to Sue's house and told her about the boxes. Excitedly I said, "Let's go over and ask if they are throwing these boxes away. If they are, we can ask them if you can have them." Sue was somewhat hesitant, but I was insistent. Sure enough, the people were happy to give the boxes to Sue, and they said she could have any others they put out. We both drove over and loaded them in the van. There, God had provided Sue with her boxes, but now what about mine? Sue suggested I take these boxes since I would be moving before her, but I said, "No, I believe these boxes are for you."
When Todd died, I had been given an insight. I told myself I never wanted to forget it. The insight is that what mattered in life were two things: our relationship with God and our relationship with others. I had not forgotten this insight, so as the day of our move came closer, I wanted to go back to the town where Todd had spent his last days of life. I'd made many close and personal relationships with the people there. I would be moving to another state and may not see them for a long time, if ever.
Bill had started a new job in our home state of Michigan. He was staying with his folks until we could be moved. He called and said, "Have you started packing yet?" Well, no, I hadn't; in fact, I didn't even have any boxes. I told Bill that I was heading to Dover for the weekend to visit, and I was sure that God would have the boxes ready when I came back. Bill was less than enthusiastic about my trip, but he didn't put up too much of a fuss. It was wonderful going back to Dover and seeing friends again. There was a sadness, too, not knowing if I would ever see them again. With the IMPORTANT job done, I headed home, ready to start packing.
On Monday I called about the boxes. "No boxes" was still the answer. I called our church secretary, Jennifer, and she suggested I go around behind stores and look in dumpsters for boxes. "Oh, this is just great!" I thought. It's only been raining for days now. Just what I want-soggy boxes. "Lord, you need to help me here!"
The following day I called bright and early in the morning. Much to my surprise, a man answered the phone instead of the usual girls. When I asked about boxes, he said, "Yes, we did get some boxes back." I told him I would be right down to pick them up. I called Brandon, our youngest son, and told him to get ready; we were getting our boxes. I was so relieved that I wouldn't have to go through dumpsters for boxes.
When I walked into the front office, I could finally put a face to the voices I had talked to so often. When I told the girls who I was and that I had come to pick up the used boxes, they looked at each other with wonder. The girls said they had no idea what was going on, as they did not have any used boxes that they knew of. They suggested I go downstairs and see the man down there. When I got downstairs, much to my surprise, there was Roger, the man who had given me the estimate. He remembered me and asked why I was there. I explained to him what was going on. Roger told me to go outside and pull around to the warehouse.
As I got out of the van at the warehouse, a man walked out on the loading dock. He asked if I was the lady who had called about the used boxes. When I told him I was, he said, "I'm sorry, I'm the man who answered the phone. We did have boxes, but now they're gone." My heart sank. Roger was walking up overhearing the conversation, and immediately he said, "Yes, we do have boxes for her." The man on the dock started to tell the story again when Roger interrupted, "I want you to give her all the NEW boxes, tape, and packing materials she will need for her move, on us. I also want you to make sure she has the best men we have to make her move. I want this to be the best job we've ever done."
I was SHOCKED. I didn't know what to say or do. I stammered out an expression of gratitude through my tears and gave Roger a big hug. After that, he walked away. As the man on the dock looked up what I would need on the computer, he looked at me and said, "Who are you? How do you know Roger?" I told him I wasn't anyone special; I honestly didn't know Roger except that he had come out to our home to estimate the move. With a look of puzzlement on his face, he said, "Are you sure? Roger doesn't go out to homes and give estimates; he's the owner of the company." I answered, "Well, he came out and took the estimate on moving us."
There was no way that Roger could have known how much we needed this gift of boxes after looking at the home we lived in, but he offered them anyway. God had everything worked out, right down to the number of boxes that were needed. I believe it was a Divine connection that brought Roger, who didn't make house calls, to our home that day. When Roger said, "I know God sent me here today," I knew he was right.
When Sue came down to say, "Good-by," I noticed that we had a few boxes left over that we didn't need. I asked the guys who were packing us if I could give Sue these extra boxes. They said, "If Roger gave them away once, he wouldn't mind giving them away again." Sue called me when she finally moved. She told me it was amazing that she had the exact number of boxes she needed for her move, with the extra ones I gave her.
That day when I said, "Don't worry about boxes, God will provide you with the boxes you need just like He is going to provide them for me!" I couldn't believe I said those words. However, the Lord gave me the faith to keep believing, and the results were terrific.